Showing posts with label Signs. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Signs. Show all posts

Tuesday, September 16, 2014

"Golems of Steam, Steel, and Bone" Chapter 4

Morning brought Elisa the realization that her dresses could go back into storage unless needed. Few of the women in town wore anything but pants and shirts of homespun, unless their profession required it. Even the serving girl wore the western style pants of prized California denims, from the Straus mills. Looking over the fabric in glances, and the way it went together, even though made for a man's body, she could see there was some use for such for her. If she could find a tailor willing to modify them for her.

The day's beginning also gave Elisa the awareness of just how much had changed in the years she had been east. The natives wore buckskin versions of white man clothing, though quite a few still kept to their traditional forms of dress. Others walked in eastern, western garb and a few Chinese laborers were present in their cultural clothing, a rarity off the main rail lines.

Decatur was not Omaha, or Council Bluffs, but the rumors of fossil beasts in the hills to the west brought many folk here. Many were necromancers, two were even from her own class, come west to find the specimen to make their name and fortune with, others were those who supplied the labor for the digs and its supporting trades, the tool makers, the dry-goods folks, the canvas and tent makers and many more. A few were the hanger-on type one found near every major project, the parasites who fed on others, criminals, gamblers and gunmen looking to steal what they could. And there were the sightseers, the eastern folk come west to see the Nations of Savages, the wonders of Nature, and the strange things found in the rocks.

Elisa watched those wandering aimlessly, their fancy clothes marking them as 'greenhorns' to those of the west, and wondered if others saw her the same way. The folks in the towns until now had somehow known or sensed she had been west before, and survived trials of her own that the land gave out with no mercy at all. But did all folks seemed to possess the ability to detect a person who had seen the elephant, as the saying went along the trails.

Walking along, again she felt like there was a presence pushing upon her back, the feeling be a cold sensation, like a knife along the spine. Not wanting to give either the satisfaction to some fool judging her by clothing, or reveal she felt the stare if it was some other with ill or good intentions. Window shopping had a wonderful benefit, though, if one could turn one's face to a spot, yet glance with eyes to the reflections on the surface, not what lay beyond. She took her time, working past the three seamstress shops showing dresses and other womanly needs in their window bays. The first two stops were to see who was in the reflections, and note what they did. The last was the telling mark. Three people had traveled along with her, a man with many scars with a left arm missing from the elbow down, the young lad of the tribes with a black mark of some kind on his right arm, and the man in the flat topped black felt hat.

All three had been in the reflections of all three store windows, all three she caught looking at her during her observations. While the man in the hat did not seem familiar, the young native and the deformed man seemed to echo something within the vaults of memory for her. That black mark, it danced on the edge of her thoughts as she moved over to a window that no matter how thick the glass seemed, she could feel the silent call of the cakes and pastries in the window case. The scent of baking bread drifted in the air, the yeasty smell promising rich delights. A rumbling stomach reminded her of a missed breakfast from luxuriating under thick comforters on the soft mattress of the bed. Sinful thoughts of gluttonous consumption were trimmed thankfully by her limited remaining coins. But oh, how they called to her. And another, one she had not noticed until he moved.

He also had a damaged left arm, one covered in a metal gauntlet, and walked with a limp that spoke of other prostheses as well. A sinister black eye patch and beaver pelt cap finished out the look, though she knew somehow, he normally wore one of the raccoon skin caps so popular decades before, and with some still. No sign of him noticing her, as he joined her at the window, obviously broke and hungry.

"Ivan... Ivan Geranof." It slipped past her lips, the name she should not give in to knowing.

He never moved to look at her. Just a whisper of acknowledgement. "Missy Lissy best to follow me in, and argue who gets the jelly roll log..."

Tears fought with a smile on her face as he jerkily moved to the door, working the handle with his good right hand, the iron glove being only to protect the ruined remains of an arm cooked in steam when a pipe had burst during an experiment. An experiment not of Elisa's, but of her mother's studies.

One family member had returned. Though Ivan was of her father's friends, he had taken to her mother's work early. Uncle Ivan, as they had caller him, raised the children of his friends as they were his own. And lost the arm, a leg and the other foot to an accident many years before, before Elisa's memories began, saving Valeria vonFrachen from a boiler explosion.

She followed him inside, hearing him already wheedling for a slice of the jellyroll, a confection he professed when caring for them he hated, and this flavor had been Erich's favorite.

"Please, Missus Baxter, just a slice of the jelly roll for Ivan. I will do extra work for it today..." The whining and nasal tone left his accent from the motherland more noteworthy. And made him sound like some bum begging for a drink, not the necromancer's aide he was trained to be, not just from work with Valeria, but certified from The Institute of Petrograd. Few could be as skilled in iron, and that metal over his left arm was just as useful, letting him handle items far hotter than others, as well as shape them with it.

By just the expression of contempt on the bakery lady's face, Elisa gained some knowledge of how far Uncle Ivan had fallen. "Out, you are overpaid for what little work you do now! No more shall you get until you earn it." The expression only thawed a bit as she noticed Elisa. "See, you block honest customers from coming in. May I help you miss?"

The tone never changed, even when Elisa produced a handful of coins. "How much for the jellyroll please?"

"Two bits." Not a bit of grace or lilt of a salesperson in the voice. To the woman behind the counter, all were beneath her, save those with more money than sense. Ivan was grumbling and leaving, complaining that raspberry was his favorite. And that of his nephew, whose birthday it was. The door behind them opened, again as Ivan left, but another set of footsteps came up behind her.

"Very well, do you wrap it for travel?" Elisa tried to add a bit of disdain to her voice, implying she was better than the bakery woman.

"That would be five cents more for the cheesecloth." Not a bit of give in the position. This woman was one of the elite of Decatur, apparently. One of those for whom class, money and power were all that mattered, and only she was the judge of who made the cut.

"Very well. I take it your employee..." Elisa made it no further.

"Contracted servant. He ran afoul our laws here, and is paying his price by serving the town. He must do so many hours each week for me, as I bought his services." A hint of the south was in her words. Many plantation owners and slave holders had fled to the western preserves made by the man who had defeated their land and ways. Places where indentured servitude and slavery were still allowed, under strict rules.

Elisa smiled. "But he seems to be failing you. Shame the whip is outlawed now, is it not?"

A genuine smile met hers. "Indeed. I would sell him off to any who wish such a waste of space, but word of his failures has, shall we say, traveled well."

From her basket came something she had hoped to leave in the bank vault before leaving. But this would be a much better use of the heirloom. Opening the small black display box, the gleam of diamonds sealed a deal without words, as papers, the box, some coins and the pastry were exchanged.

Later that day, Ivan Geranof stoked the boiler of the steam wagon, readying it to head west. There were tears and a smile on his face now. But a wariness in his eyes, after a conversation under the cloaks of the steam and rumbles of the kettle heating to its optimum range. Neither uncle or niece rejoiced to learn what the other said under the veils of the machinery.

Monday, January 13, 2014

Drifters' Season - A Poem of the Streets

Like an over-due migration,
the Drifter's Season is upon us
out here on the cold streets
as the homeless begin moving
seeking greener pastrues now
with the end of Giving Season.

Some are just discouraged,
beaten down too many damned times,
denied a chance to find footing
that let's them rejoin stand up
with just some dignity
as they claw back into Society.

Others are always movers,
drifting from place to distant place,
seeking to remain in perpetual obscurity,
to continue their evil ways,
be it criminal actions
or drug abuse and alcoholic bouts.

Been told fervent good-byes
four times in as many days.
Folks heading to places seeking warmth,
job opportunities, or just leaving.
Happens about every January,
this strange migration to other places.

Some just outright disappear,
no farewells or warning to others,
just fade off into the distance
leaving friends with no clue
if they are safe,
as they leave town in silence.

Before next full moon
I expect to see fewer folks
I know among the milling crowds
as they drift away slowly
each to some place
where they feel a chance awaits.

So, Safe Journeys, Travelers.
Keep the faith as you leave,
and if it don't work out,
remember, we'll still be around
though our own feet
might feel that itch to travel.

And if we stay,
don't chastise us for sticking around,
remember, we all drift about ocassionally,
even if just in where
we hold our signs
as we seek our way out.
13January2014 - Dyfedd Rex

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

The Storm Drives Them In - A poem of the streets.

Now the Wasatch hide
silver and grey viels
of rain, maybe snow,
washing their stones clean
from the muck stirred
by winds off desert.

The drunks roll in,
tired, dirty, and smelly,
the reek of vodka
mingles with mouthwash now
in elevators and restrooms
as they shuffle about.

Outside, when I smoked,
one of the tweakers
stood marching in place
between the light-rail tracks
screaming at folks walking
to work or lunch.

You can always tell
it's the first storm
by the clothing worn.
Most still wear shorts,
or jeans mostly tattered,
not good, warm gear.

Now they regret tossing
those bags of clothes
give Labor Day weekend
during feeds in parks
or from the churches,
tossed aside so carelessly.

Too many wear flops,
instead of real shoes.
I know they had
just few weeks ago,
but sold for hits
of their preferred drug.

Not sure about where
or when the spice-monkeys,
as we call them,
will drift inside finally
from their potpourri induced
sit in to oblivion.

The junkies sneak about,
looking for easy targets
to snag sellable items
to fund their binges
but are being followed
by the security guards.

Valley is clearing out,
as folks drift shelter-ward,
seeking to be inside
or at least praying
they open the drunk-tank
a week early now.

I've got the gear
to deal with it.
Save one item outstanding,
my jacket's is AWOL,
left in a car
with a good friend.

The jacket will arrive,
on its own soon,
or at least shortly,
as he gets off
from his job later
and swings by here.

I have no worries,
I like early storms
they drive away druggies
and let me enjoy
air cleared of allergens,
namely, what they smoke.

Sprinkles dot the pavement
out on Library Square
as I watch them
drifting to dry places.
Locomotive tweaker, chugging arms,
tells fliers are resigning.

I might head out,
find a corner open
due to the weather
as few hold signs
in bad weather now,
until wallets loosen more.

I ain't after much,
when my kite's deployed,
just tomorrow's coffee cup
and ounce of tobacco,
maybe a bit more
but not seeking riches.

East and west both,
the mountains fade away
as the storm claims
the vistas I enjoy
this desk so much
for sharing so freely.

Looking around the floor,
it's filling up fast.
The storm achieves what
the cops could not,
clearing the cold streets
of those laying about.

25September2013 - Dyfedd Rex

The Drug Storm Rolls On Around Us All - A poem of the streets, even yours perhaps.

I've heard a lot lately.
Rumbles from Hell's Block,
Whispers from City Creek
and warbling cries on streets.
But this morning's eavesdrop
gave me a clue it is indeed
as bad as those trapped
down on Rio Grande say.

Went in to the Sev,
noted freshly broken tank lid
on the throne I borrowed
to avoid a Public U violation.
Commenting to the clerks
they told me the story
of the guy who danced in
and back out too often.

But the real horror here,
is what else he did
leaving his junkie needles,
called points by many street-folk,
on the phone booth outside,
in the trashcan inside
and guess why the porcelain broke?
Yep, even in there, I guess.

Some folks in Outreach admit
it will only get worse now
as funding is up in air
and volunteers leave them
short-handed during the busy season
as the druggies and drunks
turn to rehab to stay warm
until their next big relapse.

Seen evidence all around,
like yesterday morning at CandC
where two camped on the sidewalk
at the corner of State and 4th south
waking up to panhandle
their fellow homeless,
as no one else was about
or yell at passing cars.

Ether and dog crap smells
rule the Library restrooms
and there is no safe place
to escape things I want to avoid
due to my allergic reactions
to the recreational chems of others.
The guards here try their best
but are totally outnumbered.

Skunky odors warn me off
from the smoker's corner
far too often here of late,
as the dopers return in droves
from the camps and hideaways
to hold hands out during give-aways.
Mouth wash smell spells dangers
as some drunks sink that low.

Seen soap dispenser spigots
broken off and used for rocks
last winter and early spring,
so I wonder what destruction
this coming cold season carries
as it wraps around the mountains
in clouds as bleak and ominous
as the mood I now am in.

Tweakers jitter about nervously,
who knows which cocktail
sets off their rapid pacings
and mutters of obscenities.
Some sit slumped over,
victims of the near seizure
the hand sanitizer drinkers
call their precious highs.

Every where I look these days
I see the signs of abuse
and the toll on those using
as well as the society around.
Not to mention the devastation
I'm sure their families suffer
worried about their lost sheep
but not enough to really act.

Over the last two years
I've seen it getting worse.
When I first went homeless
the hills held only the drunks
and occasional stoner camps
they always had in past,
but now, more dangerous breeds
are moving around the streets.

They prey upon society
hunt out those who won't share
the highs, lows and money
they seem to always need.
They trash the caches used
by those not among their ilk
and ruin it for those of us
who have not managed escape.

Welcome to your dark underbelly,
oh you of Society's prudes.
The very ones preaching like you
are the ones using narcotics,
abusing booze and prescriptions,
and experimenting dangerously
with household cleaning products
to find the face of God.

25September2013 - Dyfedd Rex

Looking at the building storm - A poem of today's Weather

Rippled dark stratus clouds
cast the Wasatch into shadows
that leave those rugged peaks
looking ominous this morning.

Grey haze in the valley air,
dust kicked up on warm winds
as the seasonal shift begins
and the pattern speeds up.

First cold storm of the Season,
those dark peaks will change
as a mantle of white falls
across those shoulders this week.

Camp is abandoned, for now,
as I seek a bit easier place
to move in and out of daily
heeding my gut feelings today.

Looking out, the trees sit
still compared to waves yesterday,
a sea of deep greens for now,
though hints of Autumn peak out.

Looking up at the foothills,
and the center of the range,
still no great color cascades
amid the trees up there.

Doesn't matter a bit, though.
I know the aching bones speak
to others as well as me
of Winter's cold hand reaching out.

The mountains remain dark today
and my thoughts turn that way
feelings of despair peak through
only to get crushed heavily
... by laughs over two "tag-you're-it" squirells.

25September2013 - Dyfedd Rex, Looking at the building storm

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Ideas for the Giving Season - A Poem of Homelessness and Charity

This is not me begging, but ideas from a real street person as to what might be better, for those leary of giving cash. Which I fully understand. Seen too many packs, jackets and shoes being sold for cash, drugs or a swig from a bottle right after the gift was given myself. You still won't stop it all the way, but these are also things often traded for among us. 

We call it "The Giving Season",
just as you homed folks do.
For us, it starts about now
or a few weeks back really.
Labor Day seems to spark urges
among folks who see us wandering
under heavy loads along these streets.
Don't know what moves their hearts
to open up wallets and bags
holding out things to we Homeless.

The knowledge that Winter is coming
with his nasty snows and cold?
Or that crisp morning's chilly air
that made you start looking quick
for the windshield scraper and rakes?
That blaze of turning tree leaves
whose color highlights our dingy clothes?
I really don't care reasons why,
I just want to thank you
even if those receiving seem rude.

Not all want to give cash,
and I don't blame them any.
Seen too many fellow panhandlers slither
over to dealers next corner over
and waste it all at once
seeking their next, perhaps last, high.
So, after thinking it over carefully
I have some suggestions to offer
as an actual Homeless wise man
for you to consider as alternates.

You don't need much to try
offering these to those holding kites,
as we call our cardboard signs.
Single packs of instant coffee work,
as do hot chocolate and kool-aids.
You can get cheap liner gloves
over at your local dollar stores
And socks, never forget we walk
long distances in the bitter cold
wearing those too long until destroyed.

Gift cards are a great idea
just choose their source with Wisdom.
While Starbucks might seem your choice,
you get more cups per fiver
over at McD's or Seven Eleven.
And if you choose food gifts,
as an allergy sufferer I plead
have choices to avoid reactions ready
on those most common, deadly allergens
like nuts, tuna, berries and soy.

Believe it or not, even trash-bags
can be very well accepted items,
on those rainy or snowy days.
Batteries keep us just like you,
as we have little electronic devices
to help us keep spirits up,
be it radios, gaming toys, flashlights,
or for a few, digital cameras.
See, you can find easy things
that let you give during this season.

Not saying it won't go wrong
in some cases despite avoiding cash.
Face it, barter is our economy
with cigarettes, instant coffee and tokens
be it bus, laundry or some other,
as our hottest and desired commodities.
And, yes, some will trade foolishly
giving up needed gloves for drugs,
but that choice they will make
has its own long-term costs attached.

If you decide charities are better,
please, research that organization very well,
and don't be afraid to ask
one of us for which seems
to have their brains in gear
about getting things to end users
in timely and efficient ways recently.
Also watch for fake organizations springing
up to sucker your dollars away
from where the need really is.

I'm not telling you to give.
That decision is your's to make.
Those as have the heart will,
those as don't, well, they won't.
And no matter how much spent
it won't end the homeless problem.
But you will make some better,
and give their spirits a lift.
And your own, probably, as well.
After all, it's the season's name...
...and what life is really about.

17SeptemberDyfedd Rex

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Hunger Knows No Season - A Poem Asking for Help to Foodbanks!


Summer, and things fade away
into the heat and humidity's grasp
leaving our souls raw and exposed
and charity finding few gifts.

This is the lean season.
Folks forget as they take vacations
about those less fortunate and fallen
who still need a hand.

I went in this week
after nearly a month away
dealing with my own dark problems
to find the shelves thin.

I was volunteering my time
seeking some personal redemption for sins
real and imagined in my life
when I saw those mantels.

So this is my request
as you fill that pic-a-nic basket
remember those less fortunate than you
and donate a little food.
(18Jul2012 - Dyfedd Rex)
Please pass this one on!